I’ve been waiting for two years to write this post! Drumroll, please….
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Where do I even begin with this announcement?! After two years of living in the Dallas area, I’m finally making the move back to good ol’ ATX – something I have been trying to do (literally) ever since I left. I guess I should start at the beginning….
I went to the University of Texas at Austin, and after graduation (in 2012) I tried so hard to get a job in Austin. For about 2 years, though, nothing was working out and I could only find jobs in the Dallas area. During this time, Drew and I had a long distance relationship (Drew was in Austin), and it wasn’t until summer of 2014 that I was able to transfer back to Austin with my job at Michael Kors. Drew & I were finally living in the same city once again! The only problem was… I was making pittance and was living paycheck to paycheck just to afford living there. I tried (again) to find a new job in Austin, but nothing was working out. Drew was also at a point in his career where he was in between jobs and was trying to figure out what he wanted to do, so we were both sort of just lost & floundering around trying to figure out life. After months and months of deliberation and thinking about my career path, I made the difficult decision to start applying for jobs back in the Dallas area (this was summer of 2015), where I knew there were more opportunities for me. Moving away from Drew to come back to Dallas was one of the hardest decisions I have ever made, and I daily questioned if it was the right choice. Drew & I once again became long-distance, and to be honest this was the hardest time of them all.
A lot has happened over the past two years since moving back to Dallas that have made this round of “long-distance” so much harder than the others. In the past two years… all three of Drew’s grandparents have passed away, as well as his uncle and his childhood dog; he has undergone a complicated and intense brain surgery that resulted in a really difficult recovery, and I underwent several job changes at my current company that left me feeling unhappy, unfulfilled, and unappreciated. All of this resulted in the most difficult two years of my life- I was so unhappy not only with my life/job in Dallas, but being long distance was so painful. I was crying myself to sleep almost every night; I shut myself off from family and friends; and my anxiety hit an all time high. I wasn’t sleeping and I felt so empty inside. I spent nearly every weekend driving to Austin to visit Drew as a sense of escape but my drives back to Dallas on Sunday would leave me crying in the car all the way back. I hated my job, I hated living in Dallas (not that there is anything wrong with Dallas at all! It just isn’t where I wanted to be.), and I hated not being there for Drew during some of our most difficult times.
Since starting this blog, I’ve often referred to it as my “escape” – it has been an outlet for me to focus my energy on and a place where I can share and create fun & positive things, even when my real life did not necessarily mirror those feelings. I never wanted to get too deep or “personal” on here, not because I didn’t want to share how I was feeling, but mostly because I needed to keep this space positive for myself.
I’ve always known that Austin is where I want to be… not only because Drew is there, but I love the city so much. I have been trying to find a job in Austin for months and months (and months) and after applying for nearly 60 jobs in the past 4 months (yes, really!), I am so excited to announce that I have finally been offered a position at an amazing company that is also a great step forward in my career. I could not be more excited for this new adventure and this move. For me, it isn’t just about a new job or a new city – this is a chance for my life to “begin” again in a way and for Drew & I to move our relationship forward as we no longer will be long-distance. No more 4+ hour drives each way down I-35 every weekend, no more communicating through text 24/7, no more trying to squeeze our relationship into just weekends. That song “Love on the Weekend” by John Mayer has pretty much been our theme song lately, but no more! (For those keeping score, Drew and I have been together over 6.5 years and 4.5 of that has been long distance.) I went to Austin this past weekend & we were able to find amazing duplex that is going to work out absolutely perfectly for us and our pups.
After such a difficult past two years, it finally feels like pieces are falling into place. Sometimes it doesn’t even feel real to me – I have dreamed of this day for so long and can’t believe I am finally getting to write this post and make this announcement. Somebody pinch me! I could not be more excited for what is to come and I want to thank you all for following along on this crazy journey!
Cheers to a new adventure!